The Emetophobia Journal

Well, well, well… hello there, my fellow emets. <33

I guess I should let you know a little bit about me before we trauma relate now lol.

I’m 23 years old, and I’ve been dealing with emetophobia since I was 4. Where did it come from? Honestly… hard to say. My brain has pretty much blacked out the exact moment. But my mom says there was one time I got the bug really bad, and after that night, I was never the same.

I like to think I’ve evolved since then.

I used to have a lot more triggers—especially words (hence the whole “upchuck on a woodchuck” thing). That wasn’t just me being quirky… that was survival.

Up until I turned 20, I also had a huge trigger around food. My brain convinced me, “I can’t upchuck what I don’t eat.” Logical? Not really. But it felt real. So I would avoid eating, which would make me nauseous from being hungry… which would make me anxious… which would make me even more nauseous… which made me not want to eat.

A perfect cycle. Love that for me.

It took a lot of work to break that. I’ve tried therapy, medication, and even different lifestyle changes—which we’ll definitely get into later because there’s a lot there.

Moving on to less serious things—because I’m not just my anxious brain—I’m actually a huge nerd. I love gaming, reading, and anything fantasy (iykyk). I love cooking and baking, and I have a business degree… but right now I’m fully in my stay-at-home mom era, which I honestly love. I will explain later, but I have an ESA that I gaslit my college into letting me have on campus. lol He is a husky, and his name is Jax. (peep the photo drop of cute dog below!)

I also have a 2-year-old son, who keeps life interesting at all times.

I’m a pretty open book, and I genuinely love getting to know people and talking to them. That’s a big part of why I wanted to create this—so we can actually connect, not just read and scroll.

Hopefully, you get my humor. It tends to show up at slightly questionable times, but that’s kind of how I cope.

I love a good intro, and I’m really excited to see what this turns into for all of us.

But can I just say I’m glad you’re here.